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The State of Me

I've been emailing with an old college currently stationed in Kandahar and he wanted to know what was up with me. Since I know his internet time is limited, I figured he had not heard the latest news that has happened in the last month or so. I rounded it up for him and then looked at the doom and gloom list and had to laugh a little. I rewrote the email and put it into my perspective. This is what I told him:

Well, things haven't been the best but I'm making do. Still got all the necessities and that's what counts.

You know how TV shows about people making it big always talk about the dark time just before that? That's what I feel like I'm going through now. Only, things aren't THAT dark.

- I'm losing my pays the bills job next year because we didn't get extra funding. But the boss is stretching it out as far as he can.

- I lost my book contract with the game company because the acquisitions editor left. But, I still have two other contracts I'm working on and I have a novella coming out soon.

- Just discovered I have a hiatal hernia which is one of the reasons my lap band stopped working and I'm suffering from reflux (medicated) and near constant low level nausea. It'll take surgery to fix it but Jeff has damn good insurance.

There's a lot of disappointment and uncertainty in the air right now.

On the other hand, I just finished the draft of a YA novel. I'm writing on a Battletech web series. I have a contract for another Colonial Gothic PDF setting. I have the nascent outline for a new YA series. And, after a talk with Jeff, we've decided that I'm going to be writing for me next year.

So, it's not all bad.


Really, that last bit is the best way I can state it. I've been disappointed a lot lately but it's not all bad. I still have my husband, home, cats and, overall, my health. All I can do is look to myself, smile, and get back to work.


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Nov. 22nd, 2011 01:09 am (UTC)
Isn't that what you always do?
Nov. 22nd, 2011 06:11 am (UTC)
Yes. But usually with less nausea. :)
Nov. 22nd, 2011 04:47 am (UTC)
Ack! Sympathies on the health problems. Fingers crossed for you.
Nov. 22nd, 2011 06:11 am (UTC)
Thank you.
Nov. 22nd, 2011 06:23 pm (UTC)
Ouch, that's not a good thing. However, as it written on backside of The Hitchhiker's Guide to the Galaxy: "DON'T PANIC!"
What you can do before surgery? This is more important question because in healing process there are two sides: doctor and patient, so don't wait that that doctor will begin to heal you, first of all you must heal yourself following the doctor's and nurse's advises. What they advise? Try to eat more but with a little doses, try to limit size your portion and several foods (chocolate, adipose (animal lipids/fats) are more in fatty meat, bacon), coffey, coarse dietary fibres, coca cola and same drinks, hot and pepper spices, new bread and starchy foods (especially burgers)) Try to will you stand, walk about 3 hours after feeding, and dont't eat more on supper (it must be for 2-3 hours before sleep). AND don't pump the prelum with exercises, and don't do those exercises which rising the intra-abdominal pressure, so don't carry and bring the weight things.

And what will you can do more? You must believe to good outcome of a disease. You must pretent to youself that you can to recover. You must get a good emotions of you hobby and works - literature (David Gemmell, when he wrote Legend about Druss the Deathwalker, imagine himself as hero fighting against hordes of nadirs, in real life he fought against cancer) And it's not alone story, so I think you must know you must keep you writing.
Nov. 22nd, 2011 11:32 pm (UTC)
Thank you. All good advice. I'm sure it will work out. Just a little scary right now.
Nov. 28th, 2011 01:41 am (UTC)
A Thought occurs to me. Have you ever played Battletech in the Pods, the old interlinked arcade pods that provided a near-flight simulator quality version of one of the computer games? I know a guy who has a set and has set up a business in Kirkland running games. Wanna try it out? Advanced night, you can watch the pros beat up on each other and trash-talk; it's as close to finding mechwarriors as you're going to without a fighter squadron nearby. Think you would like it.

Or, you know, we could just hang out. Have a new schedule at work, I'm free Thursday-Saturday. Ping me if you wanna do something. Amazingly, I now live up in your neck of the woods. :)
Nov. 28th, 2011 01:42 am (UTC)
Oh yeah. Gift on the way. Sadly, they're out of stock on the silver bars.
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